little moments of my life

Not eager 2 go 2 school anymore..
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I've checked...and finally got a response. I'm posted to TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC(i'm so carzy in luv wif diz skool!) but in info-communication. I'm so not a computer/IT person... sheesh! I still remember when i was in primary school... At the computer lab, my teacher would always give us a red paper cup each. The purpose? To put it on top of your monitors if you encounter any problems or difficulties. And.. most of them time it was ME who had the cup over my monitor! At at times, even without me having to do that, my teacher would juz come over to my place and check whether i was ok. HAHAHA! So... i really can't see myself, assisting the others! Oh nonono... That's just not me! It can't happen. it won't happen. Haiz... The only reason that i'm excited and enthusiastic about it is that I'm going to TP! I've been telling EVERYONE, during my sec shool years that no matter what i'm definitely going to TP!!! So... i guess my wish is finally granted. Itz juz that there's a slight defect; Info-comm! But you know... after scanning through carefully the modules and subjects that i'll be learning... i was like... hmm... it's NOT that bad lah... But i'm not so sure with the practical projects... you know.. like... erm... handling the wirings and all.. argh! But overall... everything else is just on the computer... And i think at the end of 3 years... i'm so gonna create my own webpage! hehee... and..i can create my own blogskin!!! yippee... So..erm.. yah... i'm still considering the course... not confirmed yet lah.. So.. i guess i'll juz have to wait for the enrolment package.. And another good thing is that i found out my other 2 cuzzins are in TP too!!! Both of them from engineering school too! HAHAHA. How cool is that?! VERY i tell you! And now(sort of) i'll be seeing them in school EVERYDAY! Whereas for the past 16 years... at the most i'll see them only twice a year. sad huh? But unfortunately itz true. So... with this school thing going on... I guess... we'll be getting closer to each other... which is what i've alwayz wanted!

Anywayz... 4 more weeks! Just more weeks of working... Ya know what... There's one thing that i just do get... Why do THINGS always happen when i'm on the verge of leaving the company...? I mean... for the past 5 months, everything seemed to be going on smoothly(well, maybe TOO smoothly) but..in my last month there(now) it seems that they've been detecting that i've done a lotta mistakes... and problems juz rose from there... and... now... i'm juz not very comfortable there. My presence there sort of made me like an outsider(all over again.) The workers there kept looking at me and i felt that they're all mocking me. I dunno lah... They looked at me in a weird way and its as though like saying, "hayyah... diz girl has done a lot of mistakes.. they still wanna keep her ah?!" haiz... I really can't afford to do anything to defend myself because i know i was wrong... so... i juz have put on a smile and.. please them.. my gawd! Itz ok... i guess... that alwayz happen lah..

For the past few days i've been thinking... "do i really wanna go back to school?" 70% of my mindset said, "omg! OF COURSE LAH!" Then the evil half sort of said, "hayyah..no need lah. anywayz itz not the course that you want. Don't waste time." Sheesh! I din't know i'll be having this kind of dilemma all over again... The last time i had a similar thing going on was last year. When i had to choose of whether i wanna re-take or go ITE... So... haiz... Itz so nervewrecking... but yet...my co-workers.. said that i was too calm... even when all these problems are revolving around me. And the weird thing was... i checked my posting results at work.. and...while all my other co-workers are excited...i was like... erm... emotionless... sort of...'i dun really care attitude'.. And when the results came out... i was..dumbfounded.literally. After checking it, continued my work... I didn't really say anything...or show my emotions... it was juz...silence. Then... about 15 mins later... one of them asked me... "hey...so..how do you feel now?" And..i was like..."huh? wad...? oh...that ah....? erm... ok lor. At least i got into the school which i've been wanting to go since... i got to know about it." So... i really dunno wad to think/feel/do. My gawd! Terrible right?! After going through a lot for the past year i guess nothing worse could ever happen again... and i've learnt not to pinned up too much hope on that one thing that we've alwayz wanted... so..i'm kinda like.. "come what may..." And that kind of explains the state that i'm in right now.

So... oh yah... I forgot to add in about campus superstar!!! Hehehe... Yvonne was voted out! So.. that leaves with..teresa,geraldine,clara and Kim. So... tomorrow will be the guyz turn!!! ahaha.. can't wait for Adriano's performance!!! But you know... somehow... i feel that... itz so OBVIOUS that teresa will win! But then again...anything can happen... So... ok lah... gonna do some groceries shopping... laterz.